Day 22

Overall today was good, I stuck to my points all the way.  I didn't use any bonus points at all these last two days.  I did eat a bit too much before bed, but baby steps... Still going to be excited that I'm still on the right track.  tomorrow morning is my weigh in... I know I gained a little because of last week... Even though I stuck to the points for the most part.  I found myself cheating left and right... So I promised myself I would do better this week and count everything.  I once again pray for the lords strength so I can have another good day.  "with God all things are possible."

End of Day 21

It has been an great day...  I have stuck to my daily points which I didn't do any of last week.  I'm proud of myself for doing it today...to not giving into temptation and bingeing all day long.  I even attempted to exercise and I only got 7 minutes in until I started coughing so hard I got sick.  Tomorrow I will definitely be calling the doctor because this cough is truly holding me back from this weight loss.   I just want to give it my all and right now I just can't do that because of whatever I have.  I pray tomorrow goes just as good as today :)

Day 21: The first day of week 4

So happy for a fresh start today...it's like wiping the slate clean from a bad week.  I think I may have even gained a couple pounds back this week even though I didn't go over my points by much.   Maybe it's just water weight ( I can hope right?)  But if not I now know how important it is to watch what I put into my body.  I pray that this week is a good week and I can start getting back into exercising and get things going on the right path again.  I want to one day have an amazing before and after picture to show people.    I just have to keep on the right path and keep moving forward!

Day 20: Can't wait for my WW week to start over

^^ (put together my own set of favorite inspirational
 saying/pictures to put on my desktop background on my computer)



Okay so I have to first admit that this week was BAD,  I had a good many set backs and a few cheats towards the end of the week that I didn't even log since I didn't have enough weekly points, which was my fault.  I gave in to temptation and ate the things I shouldn't have.  I guess next week is about making better choices.  I still haven't gotten back into exercising because I still have a horrid cough that will not leave for anything.  It's to the point that I want to call the Dr. back and see what he thinks I should do at this point because I feel like I can't give this weight loss my all because of this stupid cough. I guess Monday I will call the Dr and talk to him about what I should do and if I should come back to see him because I just cannot take this anymore.  Even though it's been a rough week,  I would like to thank God for still keeping me on this journey and me not giving up completely.  Now I have to say I'm not giving it my all, but I'm still in the game.  Also I would like to pray for strength and willpower for this week.  I am glad that tomorrow is like another fresh start and I pray that I can get myself back into exercising, because I know my body needs to be moving more. 

I have so many things on my mind right now... I am starting college in 3 weeks and I am nervous to be going back into this.  I want to do this but yet again I have this voice in the back of my head telling me I can't do it, that I won't be good enough in anything I do...that I don't have enough self discipline  to do the things I want to do, to accomplish the goals I have set for myself.  Why can't I be one of those positive, always thinking on the bright side kinda people?  I judge myself for all my mistakes and all the times I've given in and did what I wanted rather than what I needed to do and honestly think it will always be like that.  I have to admit that weight loss is a journey and it isn't to be taken lightly because it takes much more than just eating right, it's mental...it's wanting to change...it's not listening to that voice in the back of your head that says your going to fail...What would you attempt if you could not fail??  Seriously would you go to college and get your dream job?  Would you finally get that weight off?  Well I'm going to try and believe that I cannot fail and just keep at this and try harder this week.  I once again pray for strength for this week and that the lord keeps that negative voice at bay. 

Day 19: it's just a set back not a failure

Last night I ended up bingeing and ate 5 crackers with cheese, a glass of chocolate milk and a handful of mini oreos... I'm not proud of myself... But I had a set back.  Today I vowed to myself I would not have a repeat of yesterday, so I woke up and ate a yogurt for breakfast, a Turkey sandwich for lunch and then went and had a lettuce and Turkey wrap with a little light miracle whip(no bread or tortilla to add carbs.) because I was still feeling a bit hungry.  I have not eaten since lunch and I'm feeling okay. I'm a little worried about what I'm fixing for dinner tonight since its pizza, which really takes my points, I may make a salad with my pizza  so I don't eat as many points.  At this point I am definitely struggling with what I want now and what I ultimately want.  I'm almost 3 weeks in and I can feel myself giving into temptation, which I don't want to do.  I don't want to give up on this.

Still Day 17: Someone has to be looking out for me

Today I was out and needed a drink and went into 7-eleven and decided to get a Slurpee and as I was standing there trying to decided which one to get one of the employees recommended a sugar free version... and though this sounds crazy I feel like someone is watching out for me.  I was going to get a full calorie sugar packed slurpee before he came over and he saved me from making that mistake.  I feel so alive right now thinking about all of the great things the future holds for me.  I haven't felt this in control in a very long time.  Thank God for leading me in the right direction :)

Day 17: A little discouraged

Okay so yesterday was not a good day on my weight watchers and though I actually had the urge to not count the Frosty I ate yesterday... I did... a little sad about the outcome because it was 14 points...but on the positive side I counted it!  I'm hoping today I can maybe get myself back in the workout groove even though I am still fighting this cough.  Even if I do a light workout its better than sitting on my butt. 

Honestly right now I am excited about life,  I am changing so many things.  I am starting school in a month and I am about 99% sure I'm going to school to be a teacher.  I am trying to change so many things about myself,  including my laziness.  I know everything I am doing is going to be hard work but I can't wait for the day that I can look back and say wow I did that.   I am capable of doing this  and I know I am.  I am determined to lose this weight and go to college and be the best that I can be.  I think the best thing to do is put these goals in the hands of the lord and let his strength guide me through these changes.