So this morning I weighed myself, it wasn't time yet and I honestly wish I wouldn't have because I have gained a pound, yes it's only a pound and may only be water weight, but it really upset me. Am I not doing this right? Am I not working hard enough? I can see myself giving into my cravings, which is upsetting to me. I am still counting everything in my WW but I feel like I'm failing. I have to work harder! I know I do...I can't expect change to happen if I don't change anything. I'm ready to relearn how to cook, how to eat and how to think. I have to lose this weight, my health depends on it. My question is does this ever get any easier? Is it just the start that is this hard or will I always be fighting myself. This is an addiction and I don't care who wants to tell me otherwise because it's like a constant battle with myself...between what I ultimately want and what I want right this second. At this moment I am going to put my faith in the Lord and pray that he gives me strength and wisdom to move forward with this. I can tell already that this is going to be a forever journey. This isn't just a change to get the weight off this is a lifestyle that I am always going to have to stick to. I am learning that things aren't always going to be the way you want them to be. The motivation will dwindle and then I will have to rely on my strength and wisdom to push me forward even when I don't want to.
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